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Page one of Bridget`s Diary

                                                                                                                             18 May 2023

Age: 44 and 6 months

Personality: Type: A (the red one) or Type INTJ_T (T is for turbulent ... hmmm, no comment) - It is the rarest personality type amongst woman according to "the internet" - Chatgpt best describes me: conflicting personality traits that are often misunderstood by the masses

Stress Level: Extremely high, according to my therapist I am in constant fight mode.....I still have to find the button where you turn that mode off or to switch modes to "I don`t give a flying @#$% today...."

Height: 1.75 (but on any weight loss app I am 1.76m)

Ex-smoker: Only stopped on the 1st of May 2023. Have been an on/off smoker since my twenties. Relapses were caused by previous bosses without fail, every time. 

Weight: 120.85 - this is 21 kg lighter than I was on 3 September 2021 when my husband died.

Marital Status: Widowed 

Children: Janke (10) and Anya (6) and a dog Bella that eats absolutely everything and a cat, Katinka that only loves me in winter.

Job: Customer Success Manager at Profitroom and Owner of AfroBlonde (since 2009) - that is going to be a VERY good blogpost....

Fitness Level: Getting there...…this is also a VERY long story but I am getting on a Lufthansa flight for Europe on 12 June 2023 and I am not taking my flabby arms with me.

Hobbies: I have none, I am a full time employee, business owner, mom, housekeeper, butler, concierge, cook, laundromat(ron), organiser of playdates, PA to to my parents, dance mom, and pet carer. 

If I had a black stallion, I would have been a keen horsey person with a VW Touareg, a horsebox, sexy ass and would do show jumping and endurance races in my free time.....

Favourite Series: Bridgerton - it is amazing how much time I can find to binge a new Bridgerton series, and how unphased I am during that time about the kids` screentime, food choices or personal hygiene. The pets hunt for food during these times of absence. 

Goals: Apart from my European Summer V-cay and annual company conference and looking half decent I would like to weigh 100kg by the end of the year (when I turn 45), try Botox at least once (another story for another day) and 85 kg by the time I am 50. 

When I turn 50: I am going to gift myself with a boob job, have my one saggy eye lid fixed and then I am going to hire a photographer and a glam squad, dress myself in expensive (costume) jewellery and a killer dress and actually execute the photoshoot I promised myself at 40. 

Long Term and Ongoing Goal: I would like to raise two independent young ladies that has a voice, can stand up for themselves, does not require a man to complete them, are educated, earning their own living as well as own their own house. At the moment we are not there yet.....apart from the strong voices (aka personalities) … that part we have perfected in no time at all. 

but this is not everything about me, because ME is not here yet. I am only finding her now (yes, the therapist is helping immensely, but I am doing all the hard (soul searching) work...) 

Follow me as I share with you my life, lessons and journey and hopefully celebrate ME when I find her. 

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