Becoming Me

My Daily Affirmations I have a healthy body. I am full of energy and vitality and my mind is calm and peaceful. I release the fears that do not serve me. My life is not a race or a competition. I am enough. I forgive myself and set myself free.  I am in the process of becoming the best version of myself. I let go of old, negative beliefs that have stood in the way of my success. I adore my quirks because they make me unique. I don’t entertain negativity in any shape or form. I simply let it go. I choose to be happy, being happy comes easy to me. I embrace the rhythm of life and let it unfold. My time is not God`s time.  I know my intuition will be guided by the Holy Spirit and will always take me in the right direction. I am allowed to ask for what I want and what I need. I welcome love and romance into my life. I am blessed to have beautiful daughters, family and friends. I’m doing the best I can for my family, and it’s enough. I will always see the good in others and in myse...

Last night I scrolled through YouTube aimlessly during load-shedding and I came across a series of life coaching videos on a platform called Ted X. I watched a few, some interesting, some mediocre but then I stumbled across Carolyn McHugh and her talk made me sit up and listen, twice... Who do you think you are? So it got me thinking...who DO I think I am and who am I really? I`ve been so consumed by what people think of me my whole life that I have spent an equal amount of time putting myself down for what I think people thought of me. The truth is that I am hardly the center of attention in their life, nor do they spend time thinking about me at all, and definitely do not think what I am thinking they are thinking. The other half of the time I regretted my behavior, attitude, or fast words without much thought about the consequences. I`ve felt ashamed of myself for most of my professional life. “A man is literally what he thinks, his character being the complete sum of all his thoug...

My friend lost her husband around eight weeks before I lost mine. Both to Covid19 in 2021. She decided to write a book, which she did, and she published it with huge success. Peace in Grief it is called. She asked me at the time to write a chapter for her book on dealing with my loss and how my faith carried me through it all. At the time I didn`t find time to write it and I now terribly regret not writing it.  For many months I played with the idea of capturing some of the incidents and all of the miracles that happened to me since I so unexpectedly became a widow at 42 but a book seemed a bit copy-catty. Initially I though of writing "The widow`s guide to death" which I thought would be a best seller because nothing prepares you for that moment a meteor strikes your life and your whole existence is in turmoil and your planet is knocked out of its orbit. Also, there are so many other widows that had so much more taken from them than me. I procrastinated on the subject for so...

                                                                                                                             18 May 2023 Age : 44 and 6 months Personality : Type: A (the red one) or Type INTJ_T (T is for turbulent ... hmmm, no comment) - It is the rarest personality type amongst woman according to "the internet" - Chatgpt best describes me:   conflicting personality traits that are often misunderstood by the masses Stress Level : Extremely high, according to my therapist I am in constant fight mode.....I ...